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[rollcharisma]

I care about you too, Jean. And Reiner.

He might not believe it - maybe not ever - but I do.

[...]

And Bertholdt too.

[rustyhonesty]

It might take him a while, but I think you can get through to him. I mean, he believes it when I said I care about him, even if I have a very good reason for hating him.

[Jean isn't sure if Armin knows the truth behind Marco, so he won't say what the reason is.]

It's not like you wanted to eat Bertoholdt. Frankly, you weren't really given a choice about it.

It would be easier if the world could drag him here, too. Wouldn't be the first person to come to life.

[rollcharisma]

[Armin couldn't think of anything less easy than Bertholdt showing up here, actually, but at least he'd have another chance at living, that way...]

Regardless of how Reiner feels about me once the conversation is done, he has a right to know. If he hates me, I accept that. It won't be easy, but that doesn't matter.

I'll tell him soon. I promise.

[rustyhonesty]

[It would make Reiner happy and Bert would be alive. They might have two colossal titans, but uh, that's a different problem.]

You don't need to promise me anything.

Except maybe that you'll try not to hate yourself so much for what happened.

[Jean knows how it goes. He's been hating himself on and off ever since he died.]

[rollcharisma]

[Huh! We're just not going to address that, actually!]

I'll let you know how it goes, okay?

[rustyhonesty]

Armin.

[rollcharisma]

[Goddammit, Jean.]

I’m doing the best I can.

[rustyhonesty]

I hope so.

I mean, I'm not the best person to tell you that you should love yourself more or that you shouldn't hate yourself for things out of your control. I've probably never been. But I will still tell you that.

Because we all love and care about you. I don't know what happens in the future, but nothing's so bad that I'd stop caring about you. Mikasa would never stop, either.

Which is why I had to insist on you being on the pictures too. You didn't even think about including yourself, did you?

[rollcharisma]

[Jean's words are kind, and it isn't that Armin doesn't believe them, necessarily; when Jean last saw him, though - back in their world - he wasn't quite the monster that he is now.]

You're right. I didn't.

[rustyhonesty]

[Jean sighs at the very short answer. It's pretty clear he's not getting through to Armin this time.]

That's why you have everyone else to insist you participate.

But yeah, tell me how it goes.

[rollcharisma]

I will. And I'll have my picture taken too.

Thank you, Jean.