[Seasons] Inbox; un: jean

[rustyhonesty]

INBOX text / audio / video / action Jean here. I can't answer my phone right now so leave a message. code credit

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[rollcharisma]

Oh, I'm sure he'd say yes. I'm actually thinking of taking a few different sets of group or pairing photos, so we're already on the same page there.

[rustyhonesty]

As long as we make sure you're in the photos too and not just behind the camera. Otherwise it's not very fair.

[rollcharisma]

Ha. Marco said that too.

Don't worry. I'll make sure there are a few photos of myself to throw in as well. I'm not sure who would take them, though. Are you any good with a camera?

[rustyhonesty]

We just want to make sure you don't exclude yourself.

I think so. At least I've improved from when I first discovered what they are.

[rollcharisma]

In that case, I designate you as the formal Armin Arlert photographer. Do you accept the challenge?

[rustyhonesty]

Challenge accepted. This should be fun, at least.

the controversy that cunty armin icon has caused

[rollcharisma]

I think so too. :) I'm really looking forward to it.

it's a great conversation starter

[rustyhonesty]

Keep me updated on schedules and such.

Did you ask Reiner, too, by the way?

[rollcharisma]

I did, yes. I'm asking everyone from home. Why?

[rustyhonesty]

Just making sure. He's my friend, now, so I'd want him to be included, that's all.

I wasn't sure how you two get along, now.


Also, I haven't told him stuff like who figured out who the traitors were, since I didn't want to make him even more hostile when you arrived.

Not to mention the biggest elephant in the room.

[rollcharisma]

What would that be?

[Armin thinks he might know, but he isn't sure that Jean does...]

[rustyhonesty]

You being the Colossal titan.

Mikasa told me about that, since I haven't seen it for myself yet.

[rollcharisma]

You're right. He doesn't know about that yet.

[...]

I am going to tell him. There just hasn't been a good time.

[There will never be a good time for that conversation...]

[rustyhonesty]

It's probably better if he learns about it by someone telling him than by accident.

[Jean learned something from the strew incident! Miracle.]

You can ask me to come with you when you tell him. If I'm around, it's less likely he'll completely spiral. At least he wouldn't transform, if there's danger of that.

[rollcharisma]

I appreciate that, Jean, but I really should be the one to tell him, and I think it should be done alone. I'm aware of what the consequences might be.

[rustyhonesty]

No, I definitely agree that you should be the one to tell him.

Just be careful. There's really nothing you can do to prepare him for the news.

I say this because I care about both of you.

[rollcharisma]

I care about you too, Jean. And Reiner.

He might not believe it - maybe not ever - but I do.

[...]

And Bertholdt too.

[rustyhonesty]

It might take him a while, but I think you can get through to him. I mean, he believes it when I said I care about him, even if I have a very good reason for hating him.

[Jean isn't sure if Armin knows the truth behind Marco, so he won't say what the reason is.]

It's not like you wanted to eat Bertoholdt. Frankly, you weren't really given a choice about it.

It would be easier if the world could drag him here, too. Wouldn't be the first person to come to life.

[rollcharisma]

[Armin couldn't think of anything less easy than Bertholdt showing up here, actually, but at least he'd have another chance at living, that way...]

Regardless of how Reiner feels about me once the conversation is done, he has a right to know. If he hates me, I accept that. It won't be easy, but that doesn't matter.

I'll tell him soon. I promise.

[rustyhonesty]

[It would make Reiner happy and Bert would be alive. They might have two colossal titans, but uh, that's a different problem.]

You don't need to promise me anything.

Except maybe that you'll try not to hate yourself so much for what happened.

[Jean knows how it goes. He's been hating himself on and off ever since he died.]

[rollcharisma]

[Huh! We're just not going to address that, actually!]

I'll let you know how it goes, okay?

[rustyhonesty]

Armin.

[rollcharisma]

[Goddammit, Jean.]

I’m doing the best I can.

[rustyhonesty]

I hope so.

I mean, I'm not the best person to tell you that you should love yourself more or that you shouldn't hate yourself for things out of your control. I've probably never been. But I will still tell you that.

Because we all love and care about you. I don't know what happens in the future, but nothing's so bad that I'd stop caring about you. Mikasa would never stop, either.

Which is why I had to insist on you being on the pictures too. You didn't even think about including yourself, did you?

[rollcharisma]

[Jean's words are kind, and it isn't that Armin doesn't believe them, necessarily; when Jean last saw him, though - back in their world - he wasn't quite the monster that he is now.]

You're right. I didn't.